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I have an immense amount of work backlog which I have accumulated through the last couple of weeks. I have barely had time to draw anything in almost a month now. I also have a very bad cold.

I have yet to start writing the script, and doing the storyboard for, for a 22 page comic and I have a deadline for it on August 5th. This week I was also hired to write a speech on the economic viability of comics, and I have to write the script and also do the storyboard for for a 4 page mini comic which is to be presented at an upcoming art festival. I will not be making the speech, I was just hired to write it.

This is in addition to my other job, where I'm writing content for a Tourism website, and I'm supposed to turn in an article every day.

The main reason I've been so delayed is that I lost all of last week attending a supposed "workshop" my therapist insisted I take that, according to him, would "change my way of thinking" and "save me months of therapy".

Since I finished writing the speech yesterday and was feeling much too sick to work on anything else today, I decided to do some digging around on said "workshop", which seemed awfully suspicious to me from day one. Life is pain. Anyone who says otherwise is just trying to sell you something.

Sure enough, it's a cult.

My own therapist tried to recruit me into a cult. He is, of course, a member himself.

I was, until now, unaware of the existence of these so-called "self-help" cults. Well, you learn something new every day.

You want to know what this supposed "workshop" that was supposed to "save me months of therapy" was like? Here's a blow-by-blow description. It was this EXACTLY:

www.culthelp.info/index.php?op…

www.culthelp.info/index.php?op…

www.culthelp.info/index.php?op…

www.culthelp.info/index.php?op…

At the "graduation" they threw rose petals at our feet when we were leaving the classroom. I thought this was kind of excessive.

The fucking thing also cost me $300 dollars. Of course, they IMMEDIATELY tried to get me to go to the next course... which costs $600. The last time I spoke to my (now former) therapist, he was already telling me how my life would be changed once I finished the third course automatically assuming that, naturally, I would.

I have decided to stop seeing my therapist. I have, in fact, decided to stop going to therapy altogether. This was the straw that broke the camel's back. I have been going to therapy for years. It has not helped me. That my last therapist tried to recruit me into a cult has finally and definitively made me lose faith in psychotherapy completely.

I am so immensely angry right now that I can't even feel it anymore. Have you ever experienced an emotion so intensely and so absolutely that you come to a point where your mind is unable to even register it? That's where I am at this precise moment.

The things they tried to "teach" me at the cult never did register with me because I have never been in the habit of lying to myself, and trying to convince myself that I feel great when I don't, and that everything's fine when it isn't.

I know the truth about them now. And the truth will set you free.

But first, it will piss you off.
  • Mood: Anger
  • Listening to: Dark Funeral - Diabolis Interium
  • Reading: One Punch Man
  • Watching: Saint Seiya Soul of Gold
  • Playing: Sacred 2 Gold
  • Eating: Very little
  • Drinking: Water
"I have many kingdoms, yet as Maharajah I cannot rule them all. Anger lacks a ruler. It is yours, Karna."
- Duryodhana, "Mahabarata".

Karna: Do you know that I have two sweethearts?
Duryodhana: Really? Who are they? If necessary, I will kidnap them to get them for you!
Karna: They are not girls, my friend - besides, I can only get one of them and not the other!
Duryodhana: What do you mean?
Karna: It is simple - one is the death of Arjuna, the other is my own death.

- Mahabarat

  • Mood: Anger
  • Listening to: Slayer - Seven Faces
  • Reading: One Punch Man
  • Watching: Saint Seiya Soul of Gold
  • Playing: Sacred 2 Gold
  • Eating: Very little
  • Drinking: Water
I have an immense amount of work backlog which I have accumulated through the last couple of weeks. I have barely had time to draw anything in almost a month now. I also have a very bad cold.

I have yet to start writing the script, and doing the storyboard for, for a 22 page comic and I have a deadline for it on August 5th. This week I was also hired to write a speech on the economic viability of comics, and I have to write the script and also do the storyboard for for a 4 page mini comic which is to be presented at an upcoming art festival. I will not be making the speech, I was just hired to write it.

This is in addition to my other job, where I'm writing content for a Tourism website, and I'm supposed to turn in an article every day.

The main reason I've been so delayed is that I lost all of last week attending a supposed "workshop" my therapist insisted I take that, according to him, would "change my way of thinking" and "save me months of therapy".

Since I finished writing the speech yesterday and was feeling much too sick to work on anything else today, I decided to do some digging around on said "workshop", which seemed awfully suspicious to me from day one. Life is pain. Anyone who says otherwise is just trying to sell you something.

Sure enough, it's a cult.

My own therapist tried to recruit me into a cult. He is, of course, a member himself.

I was, until now, unaware of the existence of these so-called "self-help" cults. Well, you learn something new every day.

You want to know what this supposed "workshop" that was supposed to "save me months of therapy" was like? Here's a blow-by-blow description. It was this EXACTLY:

www.culthelp.info/index.php?op…

www.culthelp.info/index.php?op…

www.culthelp.info/index.php?op…

www.culthelp.info/index.php?op…

At the "graduation" they threw rose petals at our feet when we were leaving the classroom. I thought this was kind of excessive.

The fucking thing also cost me $300 dollars. Of course, they IMMEDIATELY tried to get me to go to the next course... which costs $600. The last time I spoke to my (now former) therapist, he was already telling me how my life would be changed once I finished the third course automatically assuming that, naturally, I would.

I have decided to stop seeing my therapist. I have, in fact, decided to stop going to therapy altogether. This was the straw that broke the camel's back. I have been going to therapy for years. It has not helped me. That my last therapist tried to recruit me into a cult has finally and definitively made me lose faith in psychotherapy completely.

I am so immensely angry right now that I can't even feel it anymore. Have you ever experienced an emotion so intensely and so absolutely that you come to a point where your mind is unable to even register it? That's where I am at this precise moment.

The things they tried to "teach" me at the cult never did register with me because I have never been in the habit of lying to myself, and trying to convince myself that I feel great when I don't, and that everything's fine when it isn't.

I know the truth about them now. And the truth will set you free.

But first, it will piss you off.
  • Mood: Anger
  • Listening to: Dark Funeral - Diabolis Interium
  • Reading: One Punch Man
  • Watching: Saint Seiya Soul of Gold
  • Playing: Sacred 2 Gold
  • Eating: Very little
  • Drinking: Water

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"Such a lot the gods gave to me - to me, the dazed, the disappointed; the barren, the broken"

"I know that light is not for me, save that of the moon"

"I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century, and among those who are still men".
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